There is that thing which we all are looking for - that thing that is going to allude you for the rest of your life , and you know it. Yet you are going to run after it , wanting it , needing it , and even when you finally acknowledge defeat you are wondering if you could have got it if you ran harder , or longer.
You are not going to find it . You will not understand it , or recognize it , even when it stares you right in the face . IT DOES NOT MATTER - you still have to run , and look for it . Always . Its not about the thing anymore, its about all that you find , discard , and give up looking for it . That series of losses , of giving up , of unhappiness and bitterness is what you and your life is about. You were fated to live this way.